Monday, June 27, 2011

There are two things in life that from the eternal perspective are worthless and do not matter. So why are they so important now?

For a very LONG time now, I have despised money.  I know that sounds silly, because who doesn't want to have a little more of that in their pocket right?  Well, I am right there with you, money would be nice to have, but MAN, does it sure drive me crazy!!!  Everything in this life is determined by money.  The only thing that we don't have to pay for is the air we breath (unless you want clean air, then you have to pay for it.)  We have to pay for our food, our water, our shelter, and everything that goes along with it. 

Ok, so you might say that love and affection is free.  Your family isn't run by money like the rest of the world.  At least it shouldn't be.  However, the biggest cause for divorce is financial issues and pornography is one of (if not the biggest) the biggest money making industries in the entire world!  Of course this isn't the case with everyone, but the very large majority of people deal with this problem in one form or another. 

The other thing that I am having an issue right now is time.  How to balance time between my husband, my daughter, my dog, my work, and time for myself.  Why can't we just do it all?  Eventually time isn't going to exist right, so why is it such a big deal now?  There are so many things that I would like to get done in a day and I never feel like it happens. 

Now I am not writing this, complaining about this, or sharing this because I have no money and no time for anything.  We are extremely blessed in our life and have the ability to pay all of our bills and are able to spend a good amount of time together as a family.  However, I sure feel like we are limited in so many ways because of our lack of money and the fact that time is continuous.  Camarron and I talk all the time about things that we would like to do to help others and how it would be so nice to just be able to do it, if we only had the time and money. 

So I have been thinking about this a lot lately, because time and money are the two biggest stressors in my life.  I am sure there is a reason that we have both of these things here on earth, but I just don't understand why.  I definitely believe that God knows what he is doing and that there are genuinely important lessons to be learned from these two necessary evils, but I just haven't figured them out yet. 

So my whole purpose in writing this post is to hopefully get feedback from someone older and wiser than myself that has discovered some wisdom in what brings me stress.